Seriously there is something that I’ll never understand. Why the fuck do we girls always have problems with our appearance. „Oh I’m so fat“ or „Why can’t I be pretty like this Victoria Secret Models?“ are the most common sentences I hear. It makes me mad. I mean why do you want to look like someone else ? Why can’t you just accept the way you are. Yeah I know it’s not easy but it’s also not impossible.
I’m not gonna lie to you. Of course I also had some „Problems“ with my appearance. Especially when I was younger. Like every girl I had some serious problems with pimples. BAHHH DISGUSTING !!! Oh when I remember what I’ve done to hide the pimples I feel so ashamed.
I was 14 when I did the most stupid thing in the world. It was a Monday when I woke up to get ready for school (Yeah Fuck Mondays). I don’t know why but Monday are always depressive and weird. I went to the bathroom to take a shower and when I saw myself in the mirror I screamed. It was horrible ! I couldn’t believe it ! My face. It was full with pimples but the night before I went to bed there was nothing and now I had those red disgusting pimples. I started to cry because I knew if I go to school like this they all will laugh about me. Especially Rosie…
I had to think about something to make this pimples go. But what ? MAKE UP ! Yeah make up was he only solution I had but the problem was I never used it before. I wanted to ask my mum but she wasn’t home and how can I ask my dad for help ? He even doesn’t know what make up is. So I run to my parents bedroom and took her make up. Damn she has a lot of make up. I mean my mum is a beautiful woman and I never understood why she need all this weird stuff.
I went back to my bedroom and I tried to put on the make up. It was a weird feeling because I had a feeling like I’m growing up or something and that I look prettier. Weird. Anyways after 5 minutes I was done and went to school. In the school bus everyone was looking at me and I had no idea why and my face also started to itch. Imagine everyone in the bus is looking at you. How would you feel ? You’re starting to ask yourself a lot of questions „WTF I am wearing ?“ or „Is something wrong with my face ?“. And yes ! It was my face !!!!
The first thing I did was running to the bathroom when I arrived at school. And again when I saw myself in the mirror I started to scream ! How could I walk with this „FACE“. Oh my god so horrible. My face was red like a tomato and it started to burn like hell !! It was the first time in my life that I used make up and of course again something like that has to happen to me. Why always me ? I mean I’m a good girl, ok not always but seriously why ?? It started to itch and burn. I called my mum to pick me up and to take me to the hospital. While I run out of school I tried to hide my face behind my scarf. I was really afraid that Rosie will see me. She can be really mean ! Rosie loves to bully other students without a reason. Especially because of their appearance. Its not that I’m afraid of her its just I hate her ! I mean no one has the right to tell you you’re ugly or fat ! NO ONE !
At the hospital the doctor told me that I’m allergic to make up and that’s why my face started to burn and itch. Since then I never used make up again. And of course Rosie found out that I’m allergic to makeup and started to tell rumors about me.
In what kind of society do we live that people judge you by your look ? It makes me sick. „They judge you before they know you“ and this is true.
Every time when we turn on the TV we see beautiful skinny gils on commercials and TV shows where they look for the prettiest and skinniest supermodel. And with skinny I mean „emaciated“. It’s terrifying.
Sometimes I ask myself if they even eat ? The sad thing is that little girls and teenagers see it. They think it’s normal to look like them. And often they starve themselves to dead. They want to feel pretty. They want to wear small sized cloths. And why ? Because we force them. We do ! With all the commercial and advertising posters. Why can’t they just show the reality ? I mean all the girls in the commercials are wearing tons of makeup and of course that’s not enough for them ! They also use PHOTOSHOP to make the models skinnier and prettier for their fake commercials !!!! Everything what we see in TV is a lie. A big fat lie! And then they wonder why so many teenagers have depressions and anorexia !
Of course it’s not just all the commercials about makeup and supermodels. Did you ever hear something about DIET PILLS ? The wonder pills which you take to lose weight in just 2 weeks. FAKE PILLS ! What do you think how many people dies every year because of them ? Thousands of teenagers and adults. Every year! That’s sad. I mean they want to lose weight as soon as possible but then… But we can change all this! We can do it if we finally accept people the way they are. A good personality is 10000 times more important than a good appearance. I really hope that society will see it… You’re beautiful the way you are and don’t listen to anyone who says you’re ugly ! You’re not ugly ! Society is! BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE AND DON’T LISTEN TO SOCIETY
Do you know how it feels when you see your boyfriend in the hallway kissing another girl ? You don’t know ? Well, it’s like a hard slap. Really hard. I mean you spend a whole year with the person you love. You trust him, you love him, you do everything with him. But suddenly, all this is gone. You don’t trust him, you don’t love him and you just want to distance yourself from him. But I never cried. Why would I waste my tears for an asshole like him ?! No ! Never !!! All I did was just pretending he never has exist. I ignored his calls and never looked at him at school or outside. I don’t want to lie so I’ll be honest with you. I really loved Matt. Sometimes he could be an asshole and I just insulted him. But if you really like someone every little thing they do is cute and no matter what it is. But cheating ? No you can’t forgive someone for this ! And if you do you’re stupid ! Why would you forgive someone who played with your feelings like playing a video game ? You aren’t stupid enough to do it ! Or ? No you’re not. It was last month when I found out that Matt cheated on me for two months. Two fucking months full of lies. And do you know with who ? Chloe ! She’s the captain of the cheerleader team. Oh yeah a blonde hot girl. Ok you cheat on me but why with the most beautiful and famous girl at school ? Come on that’s mean !
„I miss you” ????? Oh really you miss me ?!?! Go and …. Calm down. Calm down Jane ! Ah you can’t believe me how much this makes me mad !! First he cheats on me and now he comes and says „I miss you“ hahaha this is so funny and stupid. I hate boys. I really do !!!!!!! No I’m not saying that all boys are the same. But I still hate them. Oh I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Jane Miller and I’m 17 years old. I live in Los Angeles and I go to high school. Yeah I don’t really have an exciting life, but sometimes things happens to me and I’m just like „What the fuck“. Many people tell me that I’m crazy, because I often do and say crazy things. But come on guys! This is what makes me special and unique. And yes sometimes I can be arrogant and selfish but I don’t give a fuck. Ok now let me tell you what happened between me and my stupid asshole ex-boyfriend. Last year he asked me out for a date. First I didn’t really want to go because he is the captain of the high school football team and I’m just Jane. But if you have crazy friends like me you have no other choice. You have to go and embarrass yourself. So we went to the movies and guess what happened. First I spilled my coke over his jeans because I’m to stupid to walk. I thought he will get mad and leave me alone there. But he didn’t. He just laughed and said „Finally. I needed a new one“. Honestly if someone spills something over my jeans, shoes or what ever I would beat him up. No I really would do it. You don’t have eyes ?!? Can’t you walk ?!? You idiot. So let me tell you what happened after this. When the movie started I suddenly started to sneeze. Normal people sneeze just once or two times. But of course me the retarded fish sneezed 37 times in a row. Told you. Stupid weird things just happens to me. How can you watch a movie when you don’t stop to sneeze. A fat ass guy got mad and said „Get the fuck out“. Come on fatty! Do you have to be rude ?!?! Matt got up and wanted to kick his fat ass but they kicked us out of the movie. Perfect Date. Everyone wants a date like this. Oh god that was so awkward. But do you know what the weird thing is ? Matt said it was the most awesome date he ever had. First I thought he’s just making fun of me but he kissed me. Yeah he KISSED ME !! And it was my first kiss. Do you know I always wanted that my first kiss will be with the guy I’ve dating for months. But the asshole kissed me on our first catastrophic date. I’ve never forgave him for this even though it was a great kiss. His lips were softer as my lips. Yeah awkward but I still think he’s gay. Next time I’ll tell you how I found out that he was cheating on me. Oh my god !!! How can he cheat on me ???????
Hey guys 🙂
Yeah I’ve started with a new story and this time I’ll really do my best. I promise you 😀 The new story will be different and I want to upload a new chapter every week but I’m not sure if I’ll have the time for it 😦 I had the idea to write it like a diary but I’m still not sure. The story will be about a girl named Jane Miller and her problems at school, with her friends, with her parents and of course boys 😀 ( I’m not really interested in boys, so don’t blame me if I write weird and nonsensical things 😀 haha ) Yeah typical teenager problems. I really hope that this time it will be good. But honestly I still have some doubts 😦 So yeah if you have any ideas or suggestions pleaseeeee comment.
Hey guys 🙂
As you have already noticed it has been a long that I’ve uploaded the next chapter of my story “The Cake”. Well, let me be honest with you. I have no idea how I can continue the next chapters. Really I have no idea and this makes me mad. Really mad. !!! I’ll start as soon as possible with a new story which will be better 😀 But come on guys, we all know I’ll fail again :D. If you have any ideas or some advices for me just comment.
As humans, it’s almost unavoidable, we all make friends and somewhere down the line we start to differentiate between “friends” and “best friends.” But what exactly is a best friend? For starters, a friend to yours truly is nothing more than an associate. Someone that you see from time to time that you don’t hate, but don’t necessarily need in your life either. A best friend is that much more harder to define though. Many people have different standards that they hold these special people to in their lives. I’ve taken the liberty to put together a list of 10 simple characteristics that EVERY best friend should portray in one way or another, and they are as follows:
1) They tend to take on your problems as their own.
That is to say, whenever you tell them about something that is bothering or troubling you, not only do they reply…
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